The Reviewing Part

gue orang yang sangat melankolis sebenernya. most of my time alone, I spent it just sit around, wondering, reviewing, and nothing. dan belakangan lagu-lagu yang gue dengerin juga sangat mendukung gerakan melankolia gue ini.
diantara kegiatan-kegiatan yang gue lakukan sendirian, dengan diam, i think the most likely to be useful was 'the reviewing part'.

apa yang gue riview?
it's me. I reviewed myself. well, kadang gue emang nge-review orang, but most of the time, it's just me. gue nge-review apa aja yang udah gue lakuin tadi, yang gue ucapin, dan membayangkan respon orang yang jadi objek "kegiatan" gue seharian. apakah gue berlebihan? kasar? rated good friend atau the hate target?

ribet ya? ribet emang jadi gue. well, harusnya sih gue bisa lebih cuek. cuman kadang pikiran buruk orang tentang gue udah cukup bikin gue uring2an. it was like I want to please everybody, so they'll feel comfort to be around me, and I'll never left behind, alone (haha). kadang mengingat betapa bodoh atau memalukannya kelakuan gue bisa bikin gue mau mati aja. hahaha. you guys felt it too, didn't you??

that was the bad part. the good part is, by reviewing myself, i can learn something from the past act, and realize some behaviour wouldn't fit with the society. its not like i wanna be an angel, but I don't wanna be a public enemy either.
sometimes I watched how people act, and think "i dont wanna be that kind of stereotype..". wether you realized it or not, the more we hate somebody, the more we become like one. I dont know what people say behind my back, especially about me. and by reviewing myself, it prevents me from being even closer to ones i dont wanna be.

review yourself! hehe

salam sipit!